Trying to find and create me

Trying to find and create me

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Believe in Yourself~ What a Concept!!

I find it easier to tell someone else that I believe in them then telling myself.  It really is.  In my heart, all I want is the best for that person.  To give them all my love and encouragement.  To support them and let them know anything is possible as long as you believe.  So now I just went in a big circle and look where it lead me.  Back to me.  So, it is easier for me to express it to others yet I don't give it to ME.

I am a person who loves to read about words of positivity, encouragement, inspiration and love.  It is a big thing of me.  I feel it gives me strength.  It may change my thought process for the day. May change my mood for the best.  I see a lot of messages that talk about believing in yourself.  For it is the only way to be, to live, to do.  It is the very essence of finding oneself, discovering, creating and learning. 

So if anyone ever needs someone to cheer them on,I am your girl!! I am  fantastic cheerleader! I just have to learn to be my own.  I would imagine that a lot of us have our moments where we may second guess ourselves. When we find that it is easier at that moment to put aside something that requires us to be right there at the front of the line.  I know I have done it many times.  My own insecurities and lack of belief in myself.  It's a "scaredy cat" way to be.  You kind of hope it'll disappear and you won't have to deal with it at all.   But as we all know somehow things always find a way to creep back up just to bite us in the ass.  So ignoring and hoping it'll magically rid itself is an ignorant way to be.

With all this being said, I have allowed myself to be vulnerable to all of you reading this.  I can't be the only one who feels like this.  That's why I am putting myself out there. Not being afraid to admit the truths of our faults is a definite sign of our strength.  I am a real tough cookie then!! I got a lot more where this came from.  Putting it all down and letting it out is a great way to purge this from my mind and my beliefs or disbelief's. 

Is there a moral to my story?  Well I guess there is.  Believing in yourself is the foundation for all that you are and all that you are capable of becoming. 

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

SELF LOVE~IF YOU FIND IT, DON'T LOSE IT

Okay, so here's the thing. If at one time you feel in your heart of hearts that you finally had this amazing realization that you have found love for yourself, why is it that sometimes you feel it went lost.  Those moments where you may second guess yourself and not have that feeling of self love.  Whether it be evident by your thoughts or by your actions or lack thereof.

I only bring this topic to the forefront because at times I do feel this way. I am sure we all do at times.  It makes me wonder why we do what we do.  What triggers those negative thoughts, uncertainties about self.  Why we let them in.  I wish I had a sure fire way to keep them out forever.  I know it takes a lot of hard work, a complete mindset and attitude to promise yourself that it will be nonexistent within you.

A friend had recently told me that I needed to find that switch deep inside of me, that point at which I realize  to flip that switch I can turn off any thoughts, beliefs, idea of allowing negativity to become part of me.  I want to be able to find it and shut it off so desperately.  I want to rid myself of these toxins for which I allow to bring me down.

I feel it is so important to surround yourself with those who bring out the best in you.  Those who see you as a bright light shining, those who have the same belief system in spirituality, in love, in kindness and friendship.  It can be such a warm and welcoming place.  To be embraced by those who see you as an inspiration and in turn to be inspired by them.  It is all about making a difference.  I believe that in order to give your love to others, you must have self love.  It has to exist within me. 

I find myself wanting to make an impact in others lives.  I want those to think of me and know I love them with all my heart and soul.  It is what I am and it is what I have always been.  Spreading that love to others just fills my heart.  It is doing God's work.  God loves us all unconditionally.  It is he deep within us, sharing that love with others.

Sharing these thoughts of Self Love has made me understand that it most certainly exists within all of us even though some of us may have self doubt.  It is a matter of knowing that we are all worthy of being and feeling our absolute best, the happiest and healthiest we can be.  We are all beautiful, unique and special in our own way and we must know this and remind ourselves each and everyday.