Trying to find and create me

Trying to find and create me

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

MAKE THE WORLD SPARKLE

Everyone morning I have the same routine. I enjoy reading the many beautiful quotes and sayings that really make me think. That gives me rush of energy and inspiration to go about my day. That little extra something to make it an even brighter day.  I came across something that really touched home for me.  Something that my heart felt so deeply that I wanted to share here with you.

The title of it is called "Make the World Sparkle". 

What can you do to give life substance and meaning? How c...an you express the unique miracle of your existence?

The deepest purpose you feel, drives every other purpose in your life. Allow that ever-abiding, timeless purpose to be fully nourished by your actions.

See the beautiful reality that is hidden by nothing more than the shallow distractions of your mind. Feel the energy of life as it flows through your every experience.

Welcome each moment as it arises. Live the treasure that comes with every day.

Celebrate this day for the one-of-a-kind miracle that it is. Grab the possibilities and make the world sparkle with your special light.

Let go of your inhibitions and allow your purpose to make its beautiful and powerful presence known. Breathe in the sweet air of true fulfillment. ~rm~

Good Morning Believers!! How are you going to make your day sparkle?!?! Oh the possibilities!! Hope your day shines for you!! *Peace*Love*Light* ~linda~


I don't know about you but this is just what I needed to begin my day.  A reminder of how we can express the unique miracle of our existence.  To be able to feel that energy of life with our every experience. 

I am so inspired everyday with all the beauty that is around me.  With the people I meet and speak to, words and messages I read, the beautiful souls that share their light with me.  It just raises me up and brings me to a higher level of being.  I love being able to share my travels and experiences with you and hoping you are enlightened as well.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

LAUGHTER TRULY IS THE BEST MEDICINE

Oh My Gosh! It really is!!!
The feeling you have when you have had such and honest and hardy laugh maybe one that may have u rolling over in tears, in incredible.
Sharing this joy with others is completely priceless.
The endorphins released is your body's natural painkiller and produces a general sense of well-being.

Why wouldn't you want to be happy, smile and have a memorable laugh that will leave the biggest grin on your face?

Because I work in the medical field, we try very hard here in our office to make eachother laugh.  We have had some fantastic ones.  I found some cartoons online that were listed under the title Laughter is the best medicine. I wanted to share them with you.  Hope you enjoy and they put a BIG SMILE :o) on your face!!!







Friday, June 24, 2011

IT IS STRANGE HOW WE PERCEIVE OURSELVES.....

It is strange how  perceive ourselves when we have had many different experiences through out life. When others see us they don't understand why we think and feel the way we do or we label ourselves a certain way.  We portray ourselves to be the opposite of what we really are. For example, giving the impression of being extroverted when we really are introverted.  


I think it is a protective wall we have built to shield our hearts from any outside negativity.  A possibility of people really seeing us for what we truly are or maybe getting hurt by someone we really care about.  What are we afraid of that they will see in us?  If they do not like us for whatever reason, then it's their loss.   


We need to stay true to ourselves and be the best we can be in our hearts and souls.  No one can ever take that away. 

LOVING LIFE TOO MUCH TO SIT ON THE SIDE~LINES

I used to have these ideas or thoughts in my mind that I just left there. Never had the ambition or the guts to do anything about it.  I was afraid. Fear took over really quick. Then that was the end of it. No big deal.


Or at least that was the way I used to look at life.  I refuse to sit on the side~lines anymore.  Enough is enough. I have let many things pass me by for what? Why? I live life with no regrets. What I let go or did not do is in the past.


Time to move on.  Time to step up to the plate and be front and center in this universe.  This time is for me now.  I need not be afraid. For the love that I have developed for myself and the love I have for the life will guide me through.  The Good Lord Above I know is watching over me and loves me no matter what.  I understand that now.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

I AM INSPIRED EVERYDAY

I am so amazed how life is.  I am inspired everyday.  From the littlest thing to the most grandest thing that really impacts me and packs a punch right straight to my heart.  I have to say I look at things so differently now. I realize that there is so much to learn, to experience and to feel.  To be able to understand that life is a complete learning process where you have many ups and downs.  The most important lesson is to realize how you must handle those particular situations and LEARN from it.  Take a negative and turn it into a positive. 

When you change your attitude you change your life.  You have the power to control your actions.  Make each day a brand new start.  Don't ever look back and dwell on what you could or should have done or said.  Make the next day different.  Do everything you can to make it happy and satisfying.  Always walk proudly with a big SMILE on your face.  That in itself speaks volumes.  Your light is shining.  You attract whatever you put out there.  So positivity is the way to go. 

I am inspired everyday to be positive and happy.  What I love even more is to be able to share that with others.  How wonderful it makes me feel to see that I was able to make a person feel good.  I helped put a smile on that person's face.  I made their heart smile.  What an awesome feeling.  That in turn comes back to me and it is contagious.  What would make it even better is if that next person did the same for the next and so on.  Before you know we would be surrounded by a bunch of bright smiling and very happy people who genuinely felt the love being spread around. 

My main goal here is to make a difference. I have said this numerous times before in past blogs.  And I really mean it.  It is possible for all of us to do this.  I really want to start a chain reaction here.  Be a part of it with me and we will make a difference. 

:o)'s and (((hugs)))
Share the LOVE please!
***BE INSPIRED***

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I OVERCOME ANYTHING THAT TRIES TO PUSH ME BACK

I have realized that I am resiliant. I allow nothing to stop me from being who I really am.  Who I have come to know myself to be. I have sheer determination to rise above.  I will overcome anything or anyone who tries to push me back.  Back from achieving my goals, my desires and my beliefs.

I have learned that I love life and enjoy it immensely.  I believe all that is good in this world. That goes for people, situations, experiences and the love that is received from them.

I am a strong woman with a strong mind. I am becoming something that I have always wanted to be.  Self-confident, self-assured, self-accepting and of self-worth.  I will not allow anyone or anything to get in my way.  My inner strength has become so powerful and so have I.  I know that anything is possible and within my reach.  I BELIEVE IN ME AND ALL THAT I AM.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Accepting of your evolving self

I wanted to share something that I found that so deeply moved me.  Something that I had been feeling( in the first paragraph) and did not know how to express it.  I found this wonderful page on Facebook called GAIA HEALING.  From what I have read so far, I feel like these messages are there purposefully for me to discover and connect with. This again is just another extraordinary way of the MAGNETIC POWER OF THE UNIVERSE.


~ Acceptance of your evolving self ~


As we grow spiritually we may feel that we are changing.
We may feel that we are becoming a different person and sometimes we begin to feel aloneness within our journey.


Remember how you walk your journey ~ is the journey.


If you journey standing in your own Light - with faith in who you are and what you are becoming - then you will draw people to you - for they will feel the gentleness of your energy and the brightness of your Light.
If you close down the brightness of your Light - because you are concerned about your new differences - then people will not feel connection to you - and you will feel alone.


When you close down your own Light because you feel different - you miss opportunities for connection.


The truth is that you are never alone.


There is always an over abundant flow of Divine Love and Light around you.
This flow of Light is the flow of Light that is around every single being on this planet.
Connection is all around us - waiting for us to accept it into our being.


In the learning of faith in self - we must come back to the knowing of self and the complete faith in our journey and who we are becoming.
When we come back to this feeling - our heart is opened fully and our Light is able to shine brightly and freely.
When we live like this - this is when our Light can touch another's heart.


Think of how young children are in the world.
They are not concerned with how other people perceive them.
Their Light is still so bright that external ego energies cannot come to them and change their focus.


They do not think about differences - they really do not see differences.
They see life and they take it by the scruff of the neck and live it.
They are abundant in living and being - because there have no barrier to being all that they can be in life.


Remember how it feels to be in the presence of a child living life? ~ Freely giggling, dancing and singing.
To watch them you feel their Light - it is radiant, infective, addictive - it is magnificent!
This is self faith in action. 
This is allowing all of your Light to shine in connection to all on this planet ~ with no barriers to all that you are.
This is allowing your self to shine.


When you can walk in the world in self faith - then you walk like a shining sun among everyone.
The Light you radiate will be felt - and people will benefit from this gift.


The most important gift you can give to another is acceptance.
But to give another unconditional acceptance - you first have to give yourself the same gift.


~ Blessings ~
Gaia Healing

Friday, June 17, 2011

What I have learned so far



Let go of the past. Accept change. Be in the moment.

Find your inner strength and let your light shine brightly .
Anything is possible. Believe in yourself and all that you are.
You are the creator of your own destiny. 
You are the one in control of your life. No one else.
You are only limited if you allow yourself to be.  
Never say never. Dare To Be Great! 
Challenge yourself and reap the rewards.
Change is possible. You have to want it yourself.
Be kind, be honest, be humble and most of all be YOU!!!


LIFE'S LESSONS AND HOW WE SHOULD EMBRACE THEM

Life is filled with so many lessons learned.  The main goal is to be able to embrace them.  We need to realize that everything happens for a reason.  It is our choice. It is important that we look at it as a means of self improvement and changing the way we look at life. 

Here is where the I totally believe in positive thinking and positive attitude.  There is no time for pessimism and negativity. It is such a waste of my precious time while here on earth.  

Embracing these lessons can only help to improve the way you handle situations and relationships both personally and professionally. 

I have realized that if you understand why things are happening around you whether you are in control of it or not, it is with your ability to accept and grow from it.  One of life's lessons is to appreciate and enjoy being in the moment.  Life is a gift and we should to be grateful.  The days, weeks and months go by way too quickly especially as you get older.  Our lives are busy with so many different responsibilities that it becomes hard to stop what we are doing and just be.  Allowing yourself to realize the beauty that is all around you.  Your family, your friends, your animals, nature and this wonderful world we live in.


In addition, do not judge a book by it's cover. Stepping out of your comfort zone will help put things into perspective.  You may see a whole other side you never knew existed before.  Kindness and hard work does prevail. Even if in this day and age it is who you know that gets you further.  Just because you have a connection, you may just not have what it takes to get the job done.


Love makes life worth living.  Your health is your life. Do unto others as you would have others do unto you.  When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Be careful what you wish for because it just may come true.


The bottom line here is to take life with a grain of salt, throw it over your shoulder and make a wish, lol.  Enjoy all that is around you and do not take anything for granted.  Be love, give love and embrace it.  Know who you are and be the best you can be. 

Thursday, June 16, 2011

LIFE WITHOUT PASSION WOULD BE....

“Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping... waiting... and though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead.” Joss Whedon


Can you imagine life without passion? How terrible that would be. There are so many things we all genuinely love to do in our lives.  So many things we are and that we could not be without. Whether it be a poet, an artist, a writer, or even an athlete.   Without a deep rooted passion for being or doing whatever is in your heart and in your blood, it would all really be quite lifeless.  What type of meaning would it have?  As it states above, "it would be hollow".


Life without passion is a life without living.  


I felt I was hollow at one point and found that I am no longer. With a true passion to live life to it's fullest. To be a woman with hopes and dreams and a belief that anything is possible.  A passion for expressing myself as I am doing here.  Letting people know what type of person I am and that I believe in them as I do myself.   A passion to give all that I have to make a difference in this world.  A passion to be able to really express my feelings of sadness or true happiness.  


Allowing yourself to really be in the moment and let your heart feel what it does so "passionately" about, is PRICELESS! Whether it takes your breath away or makes you feel something you have never felt before.  It can go to either extreme.  Sheer sadness, complete anger, unbelievable fear, unequivocal exaltation or that feeling of euphoria that I had mentioned in one of my past blogs.


Passion is such a powerful word and such an intense feeling.  Could you really imagine life without it?

MY SEARCH FOR ME

As some of you know, a lot has changed within me over a short period of time.  It was the necessary change that I was destined to have.   I can only describe it as a journey of self discovery.  I think what started this process was realizing I was no longer going to be in my 30's anymore.  That happened in September of 2010.  My BIG 40!!!  WOW! All I could think about was how do I handle this? Do I look at it as I am only getting older and OH NO I am going to like this! OR, make it the best it could possibly be and keep my head held high with a positive outlook.  I started walking around saying FORTY AND FABULOUS!!!!! Well I really did convince myself of that!  I decided FORTY was going to be a time of renewal and rejuvenation.

It will be a year soon and I can say I am very proud of what I have done, the changes I have made and my new found self.  I am thankful for so much.  It really is amazing how life works.  If you really want to do something and you have the support and encouragement from people that are so near and dear to your heart, it truly makes a difference. 

So, 41 is right around the corner for me.  What will this next year bring for me? If what I have been experiencing has been this extraordinary, I can only imagine what waits ahead for me.   LOTS and LOTS of possibilities I am sure.  Another year of learning, understanding, fulfillment, love, appreciation and absolute greatness!!!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

When do we stop needing CONSTANT reassurance?

When do we stop needing constant reassurance for the things we do or say or the actions we take?
NEVER???  


This has always been a issue of mine for as long as I could remember.  As I am writing this I am debating whether it is such a bad thing or just something some women need to have in order to feel better.  In some respects it may have to do with lack of self confidence or insecurity.  Something to ponder.


When I was a kid I remember always looking for that with regards to pretty much anything I did.  Understandably so, as a child it helps their self esteem and their self confidence giving them the encouragement they need by removing any doubt or fears they may have. I understand that completely.


As an adult so many years later,  why is it still so important to me?  I can see it in some respects it's fine. There may be a certain situation where I would need reassurance to make me feel more at ease.  It might just be me and that is the way I am.  I think sometimes it makes me look needy. Not such a good characteristic of mine.  We all have our own quirkinesses about ourselves.


I feel like I am questioning more so now than ever why I am the way I am and why I handle different scenarios the way I do.  Is that just something we do as we get older?  Why do we have a habit of examining every detail and wonder why?  I feel like sometimes I am in control and then sometimes I am not so sure.  AHHH, the pleasures or not, of being a woman. 


I guess it is also the fact that I want everyone I know to have this image of me that I can be totally in control of things.  Sometimes I am, but I seem to forget I am only human.   I have to cut myself some slack.  I really should listen to my own advice.  I have to remember that I cannot be hard on myself.  I need to allow myself to have a bad day, or not feel so chipper and happy. Everyone always associates me as having big smile and cheery.  For the most part I am, but come on, all the time? Could one really be so happy all the time?  You'd probably ask yourself what could they be taking and where could I get some?


Reassurance is really not such a bad thing but when you find yourself becoming too needy of it, you have to ask yourself why.  Is there a reason behind it? 


I love being me and I love where I am at right now at this point in my life.  WOW!! Some realization, huh? I love knowing the type of person I am. That I am genuine in heart and soul.  I can see now what I am capable of doing and becoming.  If reassurance is still what I need in order to move forward on my journey it is okay. You learn from your mistakes, you take life one day at a time and you approach it with a positive attitude.  You do the best you can and just be yourself.  You only get better with age. I really and truly believe that. I am seeing it first hand at this stage of my life.  How awesome is that?

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Magnetic Power of the Universe

Just recently, my energy, my positivity and  my thoughts have been more powerful than ever.  I truly feel that because I have been putting it out there openly to the universe, it has been coming back to me.  Some reading this will probably think I am a little nuts.  That's okay.  I can only tell you from my personal experience what has been happening and it has been so weird yet so wonderful.  


These signs or messages I am receiving are a perfect example of The Law of Attraction. I had to Google the meaning to make myself understand if what I have been experiencing was indeed that.  I really feel that it truly is.  I wanted to share with some of you who are really unsure about  what the meaning of it is. Please see below:
  

The law of attraction is the attractive, magnetic power of the Universe that draws similar energies together. It manifests through the power of creation, everywhere and in multiple ways. Even the law of gravity is part of the law of attraction. This law attracts thoughts, ideas, people, situations and circumstances.

The law of attraction manifests through your thoughts, by drawing to you thoughts and ideas of a similar kind, people who think like you, and also corresponding situations and circumstances. It is the law and power that brings together people of similar interests, who unite into various groups, such as political groups, sports teams, sports fans, fraternities, etc.~By Remez Sasson

It makes me wonder why certain people come into your life, the connection you develop with them, the situations you encounter, that I believe happen for a reason.  It is not by chance.   When you decide at some point in your life to let go of all your hang ups, the protective walls and your imperfections, you realize that you had not been able to really enjoy life.   Some continue through life in this negative and close minded state just getting by.  That is so sad.  


I understand more clearly now how strong I am and how capable I am of being in charge of my life and which direction I take it.  I have been able to reach out to a lot of people expressing my love, my gratitude, appreciation and encouraging inspiration.  What I am getting in return are these signs and messages telling me I am on the right track.  From an idea that I had or a blog I wrote.  Or even an expression of an emotion I wanted to convey.  It is so crazy! But it is so awesome!  I am where I am supposed to be at this time and doing what I am supposed to be doing.  MAKING A DIFFERENCE!!! If I can make one person feel better about themselves or make them feel like they are not alone with whatever they are going through then I am making that difference.  


To have the ability to make someone smile, laugh and feel happiness in their heart is so rewarding as a human being.  It really all comes full circle for me.  The heart and mind are more powerful than we give credit.  The Law of Attraction is a perfect example.  Open your mind and be willing to allow these amazing things to happen.  It will really make you understand that anything is possible.  The Magnetic Power of the Universe is astonishing.

Monday, June 13, 2011

LIVE YOUR LIFE~

Live your life
Be all that you can be
No regrets
Remember to believe in yourself
Remember to appreciate yourself
You can make a difference
The lasting impression you make
should touch people's hearts
Find your purpose
Make it happen
NEVER say NEVER
DARE TO BE GREAT!!!!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

MY BUCKET LIST

I started writing in my journal today after not doing it since March. I figured I'd better get on the ball with it.  As much as I enjoy sharing right here on my blog it's also important to have my journal to write down everything on my mind.  One of the things that came to mind was starting My Bucket List.  I have heard this term a few times before and thought it would be such a great idea to start for myself.  There have been so many things that I have wanted to do but never had the guts or the determination to do before.

Now that I have a whole new mindset, I think it is time to put my ideas on paper and I will make it happen.  Well, to start off, the thing I have been wanting to do for the longest time is to see Hawaii.  That has been a dream of mine for as long as I can remember.  I know one day I will get there. Some others that I have listed in my journal is to jump out of a plane, ride a motorcycle(naked)lol, seriously, just ride a motorcycle.  A very dear friend added that other part which I thought was quite funny.  So it has become an inside joke of ours.  Hey you never know!! I am capable of just about anything I put my mind to!! Another dear friend said they could see me on a billboard along the road way.  I laughed at first but then thought afterwards, I could see that too. I just have to ask Denzel Washington to have his advertisement taken down so I can have mine put up! LOL! Hey, you never know! Just have to find his number in my cell,lol.  So I can add that to my list too.

In addition to the above,  I would like to do something so spontaneous and not care about the consequences for that moment.  Just be a free spirit!!  One thing that would be so satisfying is to speak up for myself to those that I allow to control me. That comes along with assertiveness. I am sure that will happen all in due time.  I am interested in becoming a vegetarian, living a lifestyle of total spirituality, non-conforming to the b*&^$#@t that is all around me.   I want to be able to find my calling while still here on earth.  I want to be the support, love and encouragement  that people need to make them feel better about themselves.  I want to be a Life Coach.  I have been reading up on it and downloaded some books to my Kindle.  Since experiencing these changes in my life, I want to be able to Pay it Forward.  I want to assist in guiding people in the right direction for optimum health and wellness, physically, mentally and emotionally.

I have been so blessed in my life and I know now that I am deserving of God's love, my own love and from others.  I now know the euphoric feeling I get with how I feel about myself and all I have done so far to make the necessary changes within myself.  I want to be able to give that to others.  I want to tell people that I believe in them and their possibilities are endless.  I want to spread the words that have so deeply moved me "DARE TO BE GREAT".  It is such an awesome way to live. Like you can do anything.  The energy is so high.  The feeling is indescribable!

My Bucket List is not very long at this time but the things that I have listed above are definitely attainable.  I have no doubt of my determination.  I have already seen some wonderful things that I have done so far and the impact I have made to so many.  My ultimate wish is to make a difference.  I believe we all have it in us to do this.  I may be a dreamer to some who read this blog. That is okay. I believe in me and all that I am. Never say Never!!

Friday, June 10, 2011

BLESSED CHANGE


~Blessed Change~

"A major life change brings you great blessings."

Although you may feel as if your life is up-sided down right now,everything that's occurring is for the best.This card assures you that the changes in your life are actually helping you leave behind that which no longer serves you.Your spiritual purpose with the old situations is now complete.You're urged to stay centered in grace and acceptance.Keep affirming: "I welcome Divinely inspired change,and I stay centered in the eyes of the hurricane as change occurs around and within me.All change is for my highest good.I know that love is stable and always provides for me and my loved ones no matter what our outer situations appear to be."


"Change ushers in fresh opportunities to learn,grow,prosper.and create new relationships.The key is to keep breathing and enjoy the changes,even if they're intimidating.If the Universe pushes you toward new responsibilities,know that you're qualified in Heaven's eyes."~Unknown Author


I found this on Facebook a little while ago and saw the title.  Of course it intrigued me so I had to read it.  I could not believe how much I felt this explained what I have been going through.  It made me realize that I am experiencing a BLESSED CHANGE.  I feel now that I have a new found relationship with God.  I have let him into my life with open arms.  The fresh opportunities as explained above have been given to me in so many ways.  I am learning everyday. With a whole new excitement to be in the moment.  


I am creating new relationships and I am growing as an individual.  A woman with a whole new sense of self.  Sometimes, in order to move forward and prosper one needs to see the other side and understand that changes need to be made.  Changes that help you become who God sees that you are capable of becoming.  A loving and caring person who can make a difference.  To spread love and light wherever you go. 


I am seeing so many wonderful things happening to me.  Between my relationships with my family, my friends old and new.   That is the beauty of it all.  Not being afraid to be who you really are around these people you surround yourself with.   To treat people as you would like to be treated.  To give the utmost love and respect to the many treasured relationships you are blessed to have in this lifetime.


As I have said before, God works in mysterious ways.  I am blessed more than I could have ever imagined.  He had seen that I needed a Divine Intervention to help set me on the right path.  I was waiting for that time to come but was never sure when it would be.  God knew it was time and as it states at the end of this quote, "I am qualified in Heaven's eyes".  My new responsibilities await!!!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

The Simplest Acts of KINDNESS

The simplest acts of kindness can easily and freely be given to so many around you. A smile, a hug, or even a touch on one's shoulder.  It can create such a happiness within from the one giving it to the one receiving it.

There is so much anger, sadness, hate and hostility in this world.  Wouldn't it be so nice and refreshing to see others be truly happy, at peace and able to feel LOVE all around them.  It reminds me of that song by John Lennon "Imagine" 
You may say I'm a dreamer  
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one


Or what about The Beatles song: "All you need is LOVE"   
Love,love,love,love,love,love,love,love,love
There's nothing you can do that can't be done.
Nothing you can sing that can't be sung.
Nothing you can say but you can learn how to play the game
It's easy.
There's nothing you can make that can't be made.
No one you can save that can't be saved.
Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you
in time-It's easy.     


Maybe I am a dreamer.  All I know is that when hugs, smiles and other simple acts of kindness are shared between people, it touches the heart in a most profound way.  We need to make a difference in this world.  "Pay it Forward" and maybe we can really make a change.


Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Self Parenting 101 and Seeking help


I found this on a site called Holistic Learning Center: Spiritual Philosophies

 "Self Parenting 101"

An excerpt I had chosen to share here on my blog:

If you don’t give your Self permission to be your true Self,
Then people will “mold you” into who they want you to be,
Taking you further from the light of the Self
And further into the darkness of your “persona” (mask).



If you don’t learn to validate and release your feelings,
Then your feelings will create dis-ease within you!
For a dis-ease is a perfect creation,
A negative feeling made manifest.

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It is so important to realize that in order to be able to live the healthiest you can be, you need to make sure your mental health is in check.  You will be amazed when you get your mind focused and your emotions are well controlled, what you are capable of in your life.  By allowing yourself to express your feelings whether positive or negative, is so important. As it states in the second paragraph, if you keep it within, it becomes a disease that takes over everything inside.  Negativity is a disease within itself.  If you let it manifest, you'll never allow yourself to see all the positive that is around you.

Sometimes this process is not easy to do on your own.  Seeking a therapist to help you get your mental health in check can be a real eye-opening experience.  I have been fortunate enough that my life has changed forever because I chose to seek help.  I knew I needed to make changes in my life. Somehow and someway God led me in the right direction.  Do not be ashamed to say you need help.  By allowing yourself to admit it, you are saying you are worth it and deserve to be happy in your life.  So what if you need a little help. It is okay.  How wonderful it is to be able to open up to someone who will not judge you, who will give you the words of encouragement and support you so desperately need.  That is totally PRICELESS!!!  When you do get to that point, that you have been so fortunate to have that guidance by a therapist,  be grateful, be appreciative and feel blessed.   You gave that most important gift to yourself and your life.  To make it the best it could possibly be.

Thank you to all those therapists out there who continue to make a difference in so many lives each and everyday.  THEY are the instruments placed here on earth by God to intervene when necessary to help those who lose their way on the path of life.  You have been given a very special gift.  May God bless you always. 

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

That feeling of EUPHORIA

I was sitting at work today examining exactly what I was feeling while at my desk and the word EUPHORIA came to mind.  I must admit I had to Google it to make sure of the exact definition.   Once it came up and I read it and said YEP, that is me.  When was the last time I can remember feeling this way? Maybe at sometime in the past.  I had to have experienced it because I knew what that feeling was like.

Let me tell you it is unbelievable.  It is what you label as a "NATURAL HIGH".  To be able to feel like you are high up on a cloud with just the beautiful sun and sky around you.  Some may think I am smoking something,lol.  I am really being honest here.  I can't believe it myself.  I think since taking down the walls of fear and lack of self worth , I have been able to move forward and actually begin my NEW LIFE.   A life filled with appreciation of all that I am, self love and complete joy for the ability to become something I knew I could be.   A woman who has the capabilities to do anything she sets her mind to.  To live life and be proud of who she is and what she can bring to this world.

So, I have had this epiphany, now what? My life has almost done a 360.  Still have a little ways to go. BUT, how do I really find my purpose?  I find myself daydreaming, thinking about all the things I would love to do.  Both meaningful and adventurous.  Let me tell you when you have this "NATURAL HIGH" running through your veins you don't ever want it to leave.  It is indescribable.  I am the type of person who wants to share this feeling with everyone.  I truly would love to and maybe I can in someway.  That is what I need to figure out.

Until then, my purpose is to make sure that I express myself as openly and as honestly as I possibly can.  I love to make people smile, to make them laugh, basically make people feel good about themselves.  I know how good it feels to me and I want to make a difference.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Don't judge a book by it's cover

I know I have done it myself in the past.  You see someone with tattoos, rings where you could never imagine putting them yourself, pink or blue hair or anything out of the ordinary.  For some reason we are so quick to label them as "weird" or "strange". You get the idea of where I am going with this.

We don't know what goes on in their minds, how they feel, if they have been shut out because of their individualism.  It is a form of self expression and I commend anyone who has the guts to go "outside the box".
I have found that tattoos are a great way for me to express my own individuality.  Each one has their own special meaning.  It is ashame that some don't see it in that respect and just think I am crazy for permanently marking my body.  I have said before I think tattoos are a sign of beauty and are the stain glass windows to our soul.  Our brilliant light shines through and emanates the stunning colors within us.

In this world of ignorance, self absorption, stereotyping and lack of care for others, we need to embrace the people around us with love and support.  Being able to make someone feel better about themselves, giving them words of encouragement and just maybe the inspiration they need to go for what they had always wanted to do but never had that someone to pat them on the back and say "GO FOR IT! I know you can and I have faith in you".

We all need to have those types of people in our lives.  They can really make a difference and help us strive for something better.  Help us reach for what we thought we were incapable of achieving.  If you have been lucky and blessed to have these certain people that touch your heart and assist in changing your life around, my LORD count your blessings.  There is a reason why and God has a higher plan for you.  Enjoy the ride and thank him everyday.

From a Caterpillar to a BUTTERFLY

The transformation of a caterpillar to a butterfly is one of life's most beautiful metamorphosis.  In essence, I feel that change within myself.  To become this most radiant and colorful creature is the ultimate.  I found this link and wanted to share it with you.
http://youtu.be/rcfMvyIzVas

My love for life and love for myself has been one of the most beautiful discoveries during this process.  My life has forever changed and all because deep down inside of me I knew it had to be.  I know that my heart is filled with so much joy and love and I really feel that I want to share it with everyone who is so dear to me. 

I believe that as I continue this new and exciting path that I have found, I can only hope that I have inspired and touched many lives along the way.  There are so many women out there who need to realize they can become a magnificent butterfly too.  We all have so many brilliant colors that represent our spirit and soul.  It is a matter of reaching deep within ourselves to grasp it and let our luminous light shine. 

Believe in, appreciate and love yourself and once you do, you will see how you will embrace what is around you so much deeper than you could ever have imagined.  You will be able to spread your wings and soar way beyond your wildest dreams.

Friday, June 3, 2011

This is my 40th!

Isn't it funny how life works.  This is going to be my 40th blog entry and basically the whole premise to beginning this "BLOGGING" process was because I had turned 40 and was looking to find the "more" in my life.

I cannot begin to tell you what an exhilarating experience blogging has been for me.  This is one of the best things I ever have ever done for myself.  It has allowed me to share my feelings and express my thoughts about so many extremely important topics that I felt I needed to put out there for all to see.

If there is one thing I could recommend to anyone, it is this unique and creative way of expression. I have received such wonderful feedback from my family,close friends and followers along with my fellow Facebookers.

This has been another stepping stone while on my journey of self discovery and I would not trade this for anything.  I never realized the people I would reach out to and the people I would touch along the way.  I really feel that this has given me more confidence and self worth knowing that I am capable of so much.  I figured you can't go wrong when you are speaking from your heart.

I want to let everyone know that if there is one thing you take from my experience here having my own blog, it is that opening up your heart and being yourself, your true self ,  just allows you to see what you are really made of.  That you are so deserving of all of life's most wondrous and precious things.  Most importantly, what a strong individual you have always been but you may have never realized it.

When you challenge yourself and succeed it opens up a whole new world.  Being able to reap the rewards from that just empowers you to continue to face anything that may come your way.  Allow and embrace now what may have been at one time scary and unimaginable.  Never say never.  You just may surprise yourself.

LEARNING TO APPRECIATE YOURSELF

Appreciation and self-love are the most important tools that you could ever nurture. Appreciation of others, and the appreciation of yourself is the closest vibrational match to your Source Energy of anything that we've ever witnessed anywhere in the Universe. ~ Abraham-Hicks

I have been doing a lot of research on-line about definitions of different words.  I am doing my best to understand all the different inticracies of what life is all about.   I guess you would call it "being inspired" and wanting to be more and learn more each day.

The inspiration I have to continuously educate myself has a lot to do with knowing I am worth it.  I have spoken about self worth before and how extremely important it is to possess.   Learning to appreciate yourself and all that you are in this world is even more so. 

A lot of women walk around thinking they are not "worthy" of other people's love and care.  What is imperative to realize, is that it all stems from believing that you are deserving of your own self love and care.  If you do not believe that, then how do you accept someone else's love?

The process in which it takes to learn to appreciate yourself can take quite a long time but again it is so important to find the pathway there.  You are a beautiful shining light that deserves to be  seen by all who are around you.   The essence of your beauty from within begins with you.  You are so deserving to be happy, healthy, loved and appreciated by yourself and others.  Appreciate the fact that you are an extraordinary feminine being and voice that exudes inner strength, power and energy, that you don't think you have. BUT YOU ABSOLUTELY DO!!!  It is a matter of wanting to find it within yourself.

Please understand that I am just as you are.  I have been there and understand how difficult it is to find your way.  You are not alone.  We need to remind ourselves each and every day that God loves us and we need to be praise him and be grateful for all that we are because of him.   We are deserving of all that is positive, wonderful and beautiful in this world.   The key is to BELIEVE IT and BELIEVE in yourself!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

MY Positive Expression

"It doesn't matter what age you are, if you want to make positive changes in your life it is never too late! Think it, be it, change it! And ROCK it out!!!"~Laura Trovato


Don't ever allow yourself to think you don't have what it takes to be GREAT!~Laura Trovato


Love me for me and all that I am.~Laura Trovato


Be who you are and not what other people think you should be. ~Laura Trovato




I am making all these up as I go along.  I have been doing a lot of reading about spreading positivity. Sayinqs, quotes, and other profound statements being put out there all in the effort of promoting a positive mindset and giving inspiration.  


I was thinking why can't I do this too. I am all about positivity and expressing it to everyone.  Making sure I put a smile on people's faces.  I am spreading the love.  I think I just want to make sure people are feeling as good as I am.  It is contagious.  I want everyone to catch it.


If I could figure out how to create another page on Facebook and make it my own.  I would call it either "Positive Expression" or "Accentuate the POSITIVE".  Not sure but I think the second one is more catchy.  


I would love to hear any feedback about my idea and if anyone has a clue about creating this new page.  Which title would you like to see? Or do you have one of your own you would like to suggest for me to use?

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

So what if I will never be a "10"

I have come to the realization that I will never be a "10" clothing wise. That is okay with me.  As far as beauty is concerned, it is in the eyes of the beholder.  I think the most important thing is to realize that the beauty of a person is what they possess inside.   So I'll never be America's Next Top Model, those girls are way too skinny anyway.  I was on Project Runway though. Strutting my "stuff" on the catwalk. That was such a wonderful moment for me.  Being treated like a model was awesome.  Being called one made us all feel great.  We were 11 women who had major weight loss and the topic of this particular episode was about transformation.  We all stood so proudly of our accomplishments. We got to meet Heidi Klum and Tim Gunn.   Unfortunately, the designer that was assigned to me was voted off in this segment.   It was overall an unforgettable experience.

No matter what you look like on the outside, that is not going to get you very far in life. It is what is in your heart and mind that will take you places ultimately.  As a lot of people know about me, I have struggled with my weight all my life.  It was quite hard at times as a child.  Kids can be cruel.  But if you are a really good person with a big heart and treat people with dignity and respect, that is what really matters.

Adults can be cruel too.  Opening up their mouths and saying things that can really hurt someone.  Honestly, why don't people think before they speak.  Really, c'mon now.  You know that saying, if you don't have something nice to say then don't say it at all.  That is how I was raised.   I guess these people were not paying attention way back then.

Whatever the case may be, you have to be happy with yourself and be proud of who you are as an individual.    Knowing that you make a difference in this world and are a caring and loving person is truly important.  Love who and what you are and just be YOU!